What are the long term effects of suicide?

Just wondering. Sometimes I think it would be easier to rest eternally not thinking or doing a thing for anyone else to be mad about then to breathe and live in a recurring cycle of pain with everyone tossing their fear, anger, and sadness my way like I had something to do with it. Whenever I go to sleep I feel relaxed and calm but whenever I wake up cold air and sweat make me feel just as uncomfy as loud screaming complaining angry voices telling me to do something or not do something so after a while it gets very aggravating but I know that is how life: breathing in this world with other people, is. Still I wonder what would happen if I died. I bet everyone would drop their issues and start thinking about me then.....and not because they want to punish me for not obeying them or tell me I am wrong for the umpteenth time! Sometimes I think the only time I'll get any praise is when I die because when I am alive all I do is annoy people. Wierd huh? Whether I live or die it is inevitable that I will hurt others either by being neglectful of responsiblities or having annoying habits like farting! I guess those things make me a disgusting hateful unlovable creature worthy of everlasting sleep in the ground. When I am alive everyone will complain about me not doing my job, but when I decide I want to die they will all scream "No!" That's because they all want me to stick around so they can crush me through and through to the bone more! It doesn't matter how sad everyone else gets. They can't control me so the sooner they let go of that controlling attachment the better.